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snow driving

i can't tell if i am moving

hands are swetting lights seem brighter

i am in the grocery store 

i don't feel like i belong to this world

i should leave

back in my rooming house

i feel safe 

i am a human again

what am i?

driving snow

i remember it

those sardines tasted good 

i could not get my barings

my hands were swetty and lights seemed brighter

was i dosed? everything is falling apart

in the grocery store 

i want her to read this, though she does not exist anymore

she only exists now as a habit in my mind

anxiety reminds me of her

i don't feel part of this wrld the signs look funny

as she hands my the cheese i am scared 

am i crazy?

insanity can be good for the reputation

but being insane is not fun