Dorling Lord

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So done duel sum ton onto, Instatement tub reviled sun morph

Live roof zenith so eat, Moonlike heat redwood Donna heat

Yolk rot rave done

Rove nomad

Phase 4 (arbitrary phase breaks)

Fragrent matter it is all coming together now. I am burning but not so alone anymore. I need her to just take care of me sometimes. Just hold me make everything all right no so alone so alone. Complexity. Implications for increase in information on my consciousness. What is power – better – how does increase in power change my consciousness. My relationships – humans relationship to this planet why save anything.? Humans seem to be tending toward a more and more visual or digital world “on the screen” view. – Less internalizing thoughts? Detachment from actual materials astetics moving from 3-D and 2-D manually produced things to digital flat bright so different from our evolutionary past – is it? What does that mean? Evolution is a co-opting of existant parts for use in new ways. Simpilified into using an object (concrete or abstract) for something other than its intended purpose. Digital seems to detach or inhibit one from an experiential understanding of the world. As in understanding physics from a book vs understanding it from doing the experiments yourself. My educational experience has been foundes on a “taking things for granted” viewpoint. Take Newton’s laws, derive them, yes, do all the math, yes, but never doing the experiments. It all means nothing to me. I need to see it feel it understand what a model really is! View science as a model for our unexplainable unknowable existence. Seems to me… education, gaining more knowledge and experience, brain power, social class, parents, genetics, life experience, weather, stars, food I have eaten, friends – enemies – acquaintances – and people I have passed, drugs I have taken, TV shows I have seen or not seen but only heard of, my brother, my parents, people I have dated, people I have wanted to date, people I have wanted to fuck. What is it? Explode books. Understanding the basics not taking them for granted. Fluid motion forward not with bludges in time. But will they always be there I don’t know like worm in cave but gets stuck at some point and guts explode out its mouth. Law over Oversum Oversum tramping in cold wood stained stomack rotten wood over the hill in the rotten stomack nobody knows. I am cold can I come over I ma so lonely I want to sit but what if she does not like me oh he is a nice guy no she would think nice person. We love the classics. We hate God and Jesus. What is on your face. Repititive actions make fears go away fear – repetitive actions. The thought behind the work – no thought behind the work – no thought behind the word no thought behind the work no thought behind the work no thought behind the work no thought behind the work. I don’t think well I don’t feel well I… I… don’t there is no point in me. I am pealing all my muddy flesh. Oh he is sad if he saw this “she would hate me anyway” where is my life going, just over the hill into the woods oh I see! Just let what is on there out. Fly home baby. I am having a fucking heart attack. Not mine sent to mine hotter. Questions: What is the biggest string instrument ever made in the violin cello family? Formula for AMD Al hydroxides, What is he melting temperature? I love beer. Cat running into bed on a cool fall morning of spring morning the tops of the sheets are still cold we are in the second floor of the house the moon is surrounded by windows and there is cracked white paint on the window sills it is thick there are many layers cracks were hidden in the past by applying more paint. Cat stoned in weathered mobs. Screaming little people incredibly baby we are even better not/now that Heaven and Hell and left to their own devices away from Earth. These lost loves stick in my head who gives a fuck fuck my mind fuck my megabytes. I am at this point in my life just another point. Or is it the point they say something like that but I think I see it. Pittsburgh pirates are invading boats on the rivers around Pittsburgh. Heat my shoes and oh God torn my risb and blood are in me but mostly in my past I was more unreal then killing seemed cool or badass I had no conception of empathy but I think there was the feeling of it. The two were not yet connected. Teach children to kill at a game. The future of war. I think it is a very smart idea. Make model Destroy model make better model destroy model make batter model destroy model make better model. Can circumvent my brain and its model making tendencies or is there a back door or short cut or a way to short circuit my mind. What – is it important? Is “is”. I don’t think I can come back from this one. Well it, I think that way… maybe I should drink more? Yeah. I arrived at the house after midnight. Started by following some leads but all I found were (illegible). Smoke under the Night, my. Resolutions about tonight dissolved with the closed door. Streets closed by the fat man, Carlos is his name. He is a technophile. Constantly on his i-Phone or Blackberry. What is information? It has a “objective” definition that is it is defined in a dictionary. More important is how information is used. I live in a box. It is easy here I never have to be there, there is all kinds of stuff for me to do. I live in a box. It is easy here I think about waking up. I plan on doing things. My life is going to be amazing. I never have to be there. Some people get it really bad or not at all and most people get it somewhere in between. Weathering of Ultramafic CO2 Sequestration. White one building to reduce heat energy being absorbed by the earth. Rocks good. Natural. Natural? Art? That nothing timing moth moth nothing timing. Something about working in a medium that has a long history. It is safe in that at this point in time everything has been done. It is great to explore painting but and you can change yourself there but it is more. Excitedly go down a path totally unknowm. Window of opportunity my mind always changes. To Where. What it ito. Why do these things always fuck us up. So little but so big as I grow older things are less important. There is no history I care to care about. I feel connected to my city. I feel fleeting moments of connectedness connect just do it connect. Sit there and make yourself do it all the time no matter what is going on. Just excuses just entrenched feelings no judgment. What if I can change it What it I can change my own mind change it from being negative what do I have to lose, pride? Fuck you pride. Changed my mind. Change my mind. Change my mind. Remodel. Malachi "Buck" Mulligan – Malachite – Green – Ireland.

Phase 3 (arbitrary phase breaks)

It is hot in here kind of more water vapor than outside it is falling now so there is less water in the air. I am near them and behind them behind the door. I think I recognize her voice, probably not her. Hungry for something I hear their talk of being and nature. I just feel detached. It takes a lot of work for me to feel connected who is in my head when I am alone. I am so lonely I just want friends to drink with I want to die everything is so empty and boring. Don’t make such a thing about it. Robotic love making machine I want to eat her pussy. I want to drink all her drink of her. I am a young man reading this to you I don’t mind working I wanna get really fucked up why? I want to forget all the shit I want to be free of it fuck man I don’t want to find truth… truth is being really fucked up. I wanna drink myself to death. Keep the bozz I wanna forget it all and drink myself to death… ooo that’s so dark and complex. Translate this freedom topo. Over and Over and Over. I want: Hard Shiny can be polished to be shiny. I like the idea of polishing things (iron iron iron material it is) Melting: I think a lot about what materials look like when they are altered –how they look cut + polished and covering a large area, encompassing my field of view, how they melt how their melt behaves. I really like melting things. Cut polish melt put acid + corrosive materials.

philly

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Driving between my breath and myself
i wana be in bed
i wana apply myself
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Sometime in 2008: P-2 (arbitrary phase breaks)

PoverPrint. All in my head is all in my head safety my friend is Begin Here its all right all all okay mantra head in my all beginning its all right my head is here all in my head is okay all is pointed in my head. Stay with it. Stay with it. Stay with it. Stay with it. Stay with it. Faith Faith is sall very big but simple and perfect it is nothing like I think it is but simpler. Words for art: passive active masculine feminine planned unplanned. 85 ½ 1’. Trying to understand or perceive my mind trying to understand myself in this world. IDEA: SPATIAL NEGATIVES, negative of a person-cop-house-room, full space instead of empty space. Power power power. Work ahead work now work now are we working together or alone what is alone really a feeling. Just a sliver ball of thought it really does go by it is in my mirror now but is it really gone where is it now. I am Loose. I fight disabled people. Mind unable to feel happy. But I need to go about something maybe I should get a pickup truck. Orth prefix what does it mean. Global event look at me ha just me over here ha! Forest remember spikes getten me wanted to find the bamboo forest so I could get a piece of bamboo. I want I be. I want to visit my friend JS I miss him he is my friend. I want I be So nice to that ugly girl. She is not ugly, but most people will think she is, it makes me want to cry. I like cats when I see a cat I am excited it is also special when I see a water bird like a duck or blue heron dogs are just dogs. Lights dim and remind me of leaves-waving into my room window where I used to take naps as a child. Oppsite communication through inanimate object or idea could be non-“thinking” in human sence entities many working to move a bit of food. End of song guitar I like it but is is. I don’t think well I feel like I can have only ever been just content happy so happy to be with anti-depressants. FA. Fat man with a goatee he looks dumb and has a dumb look on his face I am sure he is not dumb maybe he is a nice guy at any rate he is a beautiful being. I would like to be known at the butcher of something someday. My Feet are doing what my head is trying to say. Thoughts and conversation between my thoughts and what I write. What I write is like filtering my thoughts, with my writing speed. Expressing thought I think the best way is just acting and being there when you do it. Seems very animal to me. Put your little hand in mine I got you babe fuck that drunk guy is clomping around. I am the fragrance master I cut in lines I matter I need weight gain powder I want to tuck in my poly shirt. Fragrent organic matter seeps into my… What is dancing what is performing how do these things feel. Just feeling okay. Seep Ja. ROBOTIC Tonite get over it, How? Fit right NoW she cool JAZZ. You call that dictation. Dorom in Bennener. Shadow leaf concrete match stick burnt. Toes in sun shine cracked concrete rocks exposed at surface leaf weathering into interesting patterns, man –window washer- I assume –washign windows now. Salon next door I wonder. What they think about me writing. Woman voice don’t want to let her see me write. Try to act cool and special.

Sometime in 2008: P-1 (arbitrary phase breaks)

let me six let me six Roman opalka 130521 789 making coffeee: 1cup=6oz H2O per 2 table spoons course ground let sit 4 min let sit four 4 let him swing string him up cut off his head touch mythickthing suck my cock live in the world hey man where were you in the 80's i am numb i am numb scary numb
Penna QE747P4H671983 QE157A29NO21966 qN67505672000 John Davis qN6797L652002R.Long N6498.156R632007 Hydrotech heavy equipment allignment family fun center 4 only wood eagle local clinic operations cafe today west peach way stop here trimmer regular general general south I swear I know her probs just a memory of a trace Smoking escort. Road besinbelt cross tea firefly school blind manghole south images of yellow stars blind in ore spot concentrate (concerned?) with thinking of turning into the end. God bless America god answers knee mail Wins GO! Palm yxb 94295 Old chines man behind me in the car sitting no he was reading. No except with poor services residential fixed light installations jobs by store on best park with exotic mortuary. Litter highway crypthome cracking in ears foggy food cake 347 push walk store hollow w inning --limit blue flame welcome hope--(note: precognition predictions of Barak Obama 2009 back in April 2008, probable maybe predicts his assassination I hope not). Philosophers and scientists are very good at simpilifing/structuring the infinite complexities of the universe and the mind and experience and being, so. April 24 2008: nobody should hold you back I feel bound -walled up- stuck by my connection that I need to act in a way that people I admire or really just everyone will like me or think that I am cool or not geeky and stupid and not unaware or something like that – someone smart and “above” others – I don’t want to feel bound by these things anymore. Garbage face smell, smell of washing dishes gold anarchy slopping wet food gotta get it clean wanna belong. Line in fillm give me money for a ME something dinner I have not eted all my change for a cigarette AMERICA. River smell like tadpoles my childhood of tadpoles. Why does it always smell like pancakes when I go around a corner. Picking paint of the scarab munch on cherry blossoms and grass. Smelling mulch eating in, pain in my lip from, sure lip mulch, wanting blind in car I wana fuck in the back. Detached numb feeling. Inside my head feeling anxiety about being alive picking green paint of the scarab just being alive wind blew by wana be at the bench without his aching head. Smushing thoughts roll through the broken baskets rolloling tongue of feelings in my body. Autan starscape warm tongue of thought is bonding with my spine all red and bumpy like. Square head in a striped grey shirt my stomach hurts I think I had 2 much coffee my head is kind of fat right now and I need to wash my hands they feel sticky and dry from sitting in this room to long slightly feeling that things are not right what does that mean? Switch between states of mind what switches what is changing is there a switch there only seems to be a switch. Atlanta: did not sleep night before I left also slept with T, and had 3 beers. Sleeping with her, I did not want to leave. Leave- derealization feelings when I left still have them (kind of) [funny now this seems so distant, now just seems to be an unconscious reaction and not REALITY, I don’t know REALITY as well as I did in Atlanta.] Yes Say just thoughts. I want to destroy my camera burn them totally burn them and use their ash in a glaze on a pot I will drink out of fuck cameras fuck them. Wild Branch sways as it wants. Bright stabbing moving so much in her little frame. Feel a little bit better calming myself is the best anti-depressive. Stay with it is best advice. I do not have any objections to anyone I am free I am free these are only ever thoughts these are only ever thoughts only anxiety as a result of depression. I am tired hungry thirsty angry or I feel detached or just empty. It is okay I will go home and sleep. Her eyes, it’s all hormones. God Tir ervile GOD TIRER VICE. OHIO cher Korea paint colored fabric covering my head. Drink mustard shadow of many lights no no them want. I AM Don’t I MA AM I AM Not going to spend another year working I am going. Cussing bucked toothed women out. Wiretap must win on hairspray. He never turned himself in in himself in.

Q&A, with Dave and Sam (1)

What is your name? Doesnt matter, its a piece of cake, dude.
Why is there suffering in the world? Many people think the same thing. Its all in how you turn the wheel.
What is Art? Anytime, Anywhere, people do crazy things under pressure.
How can we humans live together in this crazy world? 8 o'clock when i was 4 years old.
What is the best way to be happy? Teddie Roosevelt Prank Phone in the hall.
What does it mean to be alive? Squares for Dancing.
Where is my mind? Eye twitch.
Does God Exist? gold spices and shrines.
What is Exist? Spanish peoples dirty minds.

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We have to fix this situation right fucking now, or there's going to be nuclear wars and mass death, and it's not going to be very interesting. There's not going to be a United States in five years, OK?

shaman risks their ass to get knowledge that the tribe needs to continue. In this case, the tribe is potentially the whole fucking world

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I wave the flag for the principles of our nation

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We might have bought into this crap in the 1960s because too many people were doing LSD. We're not on LSD anymore -- we need to start making sense.

think about it, yeah think about it

Girl, you better check yourself before you wreck yourself!

think about it, yeah think about it

I think technology gets ahead of philosophy sometimes.