Sometime in 2008: P-1 (arbitrary phase breaks)

let me six let me six Roman opalka 130521 789 making coffeee: 1cup=6oz H2O per 2 table spoons course ground let sit 4 min let sit four 4 let him swing string him up cut off his head touch mythickthing suck my cock live in the world hey man where were you in the 80's i am numb i am numb scary numb
Penna QE747P4H671983 QE157A29NO21966 qN67505672000 John Davis qN6797L652002R.Long N6498.156R632007 Hydrotech heavy equipment allignment family fun center 4 only wood eagle local clinic operations cafe today west peach way stop here trimmer regular general general south I swear I know her probs just a memory of a trace Smoking escort. Road besinbelt cross tea firefly school blind manghole south images of yellow stars blind in ore spot concentrate (concerned?) with thinking of turning into the end. God bless America god answers knee mail Wins GO! Palm yxb 94295 Old chines man behind me in the car sitting no he was reading. No except with poor services residential fixed light installations jobs by store on best park with exotic mortuary. Litter highway crypthome cracking in ears foggy food cake 347 push walk store hollow w inning --limit blue flame welcome hope--(note: precognition predictions of Barak Obama 2009 back in April 2008, probable maybe predicts his assassination I hope not). Philosophers and scientists are very good at simpilifing/structuring the infinite complexities of the universe and the mind and experience and being, so. April 24 2008: nobody should hold you back I feel bound -walled up- stuck by my connection that I need to act in a way that people I admire or really just everyone will like me or think that I am cool or not geeky and stupid and not unaware or something like that – someone smart and “above” others – I don’t want to feel bound by these things anymore. Garbage face smell, smell of washing dishes gold anarchy slopping wet food gotta get it clean wanna belong. Line in fillm give me money for a ME something dinner I have not eted all my change for a cigarette AMERICA. River smell like tadpoles my childhood of tadpoles. Why does it always smell like pancakes when I go around a corner. Picking paint of the scarab munch on cherry blossoms and grass. Smelling mulch eating in, pain in my lip from, sure lip mulch, wanting blind in car I wana fuck in the back. Detached numb feeling. Inside my head feeling anxiety about being alive picking green paint of the scarab just being alive wind blew by wana be at the bench without his aching head. Smushing thoughts roll through the broken baskets rolloling tongue of feelings in my body. Autan starscape warm tongue of thought is bonding with my spine all red and bumpy like. Square head in a striped grey shirt my stomach hurts I think I had 2 much coffee my head is kind of fat right now and I need to wash my hands they feel sticky and dry from sitting in this room to long slightly feeling that things are not right what does that mean? Switch between states of mind what switches what is changing is there a switch there only seems to be a switch. Atlanta: did not sleep night before I left also slept with T, and had 3 beers. Sleeping with her, I did not want to leave. Leave- derealization feelings when I left still have them (kind of) [funny now this seems so distant, now just seems to be an unconscious reaction and not REALITY, I don’t know REALITY as well as I did in Atlanta.] Yes Say just thoughts. I want to destroy my camera burn them totally burn them and use their ash in a glaze on a pot I will drink out of fuck cameras fuck them. Wild Branch sways as it wants. Bright stabbing moving so much in her little frame. Feel a little bit better calming myself is the best anti-depressive. Stay with it is best advice. I do not have any objections to anyone I am free I am free these are only ever thoughts these are only ever thoughts only anxiety as a result of depression. I am tired hungry thirsty angry or I feel detached or just empty. It is okay I will go home and sleep. Her eyes, it’s all hormones. God Tir ervile GOD TIRER VICE. OHIO cher Korea paint colored fabric covering my head. Drink mustard shadow of many lights no no them want. I AM Don’t I MA AM I AM Not going to spend another year working I am going. Cussing bucked toothed women out. Wiretap must win on hairspray. He never turned himself in in himself in.