nobody should hold

nobody should hold you back I feel bound -walled up- stuck by my connection that I need to act in a way that people I admire or really just everyone will like me or think that I am cool or not geeky and stupid and not unaware or something like that – someone smart and “above” others – I don’t want to feel bound by these things anymore, garbage face smell, smell of washing dishes gold anarchy slopping wet food gotta get it clean wanna belong, was that just a line in the film “give me money for a ME!” something, dinner I have not ate (eight) all my change for a cigarette AMERICA. River smell like tadpoles my childhood of tadpoles.