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snow driving

i can't tell if i am moving

hands are swetting lights seem brighter

i am in the grocery store 

i don't feel like i belong to this world

i should leave

back in my rooming house

i feel safe 

i am a human again

what am i?

driving snow

i remember it

those sardines tasted good 

i could not get my barings

my hands were swetty and lights seemed brighter

was i dosed? everything is falling apart

in the grocery store 

i want her to read this, though she does not exist anymore

she only exists now as a habit in my mind

anxiety reminds me of her

i don't feel part of this wrld the signs look funny

as she hands my the cheese i am scared 

am i crazy?

insanity can be good for the reputation

but being insane is not fun

everything is right here right now

everything is right here right now 

everything is right here right now 

everything is right here right now 

everything is right here right now 

no no 

i lost it

everything is right here right now 

just total come on

come on

everything is right here right now 

fuck 

i threw the dirt cloths away 

i drank some water

i watched some tv to pass the time

i am going to go to bed  

i am going to shower first 

Freeman please modulate the performance of the brain

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STATELY, PLUMP BUCK MULLIGAN CAME FROM THE STAIRHEAD, 

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Temperature flew right past 22. This time the singularity signaled the closing of an epoch. I ask myself, is “itself” referred to as it is and should we considered fluctuations in the cosmic microwave. If yes than the new correlation function of independent measurements strongly supports the detailed model contents The universe will have an incredibly high energy phase during which it will grow preserving the motions of particles at the expense of the baryon number. Excess of quarks make up the predominance of matter in the universe. Continued growth transitions put the parameters of elementary particles values into the realm of physics experiments. At about 10 to 6 the antiquarks of baryons over antibaryons. The high enough 1010 of the original protons their antiparticles. A and electrons were no energy density of the temperature was about 109; SI prefix giga) Kelvin helium nuclei Bang nucleosynthesis.[28] Most protons remained the that about 379,000 years the electrons (mostly hydrogen); the cosmic microwave background radiation.[29] Extrapolation of the finite time in the breakdown of general relativity. hot, dense phase "the Big Bang",[notes 2] and of temperature background, and measurements of the universe these the ΛCDM model that describes the universe.

The was filled homogeneously and isotropically density, huge temperatures caused a cosmic inflation, exponentially.[24] After inflation stopped, that the random relativistic speeds, and particle-antiparticle pairs baryogenesis violated leading to a very small over in antimatter in the present universe.[26]

The size and fundamental forces of physics and into their present be attained in particle seconds, quarks and gluons a small excess temperature was now no longer one in and neutrons, and none of happened protons, longer moving relativistically and the was dominated a billion (one thousand million; and the density a process called Big uncombined as hydrogen nuclei. 

observations #24

cracks form around my foot as i step on the soft earth

nightmear and calming myself with list

last night i was constructing a puzzle. its teeth were huge i could see my hand through its mouth but i could not understand how my hand got in its mouth to begin with.  well i just tried to forget it, i otta just forget that weirdness or i am gonna go crazy. why does that happen what just happened was i dreaming yeah i was dreaming. i hate raisins and extra of them. i don't like cranberries and cars. i like dollars and fax machines, getting candy bars, being on my own in the Galaxy, cross walks with long green walky lights, new perspectives, America, bikinis on girls with small boobs, walking down the street and noticing someone noticing my shoes, Beaujolais, outrageous good fortune of being the one sperm and egg to make it the one bonding of male and female to make it to be a conscious being in this time now to know the people i know it see the thing i see right now, hundreds of dollars, bowflex home gyms, old natural geographic magazines, the capability of supporting life, Herzog, toothsome sand dune spiders, kayaks, claystone, fine grained flyash, cream cheese with some cold smoked salmon on a fresh made bagel especially when I was ten years old after art class, New York Museum of Natural History, cobalt from the Congo, digital cameras, complex life, rift zones and associated rocks and minerals, feldspar it is so cool it is very common in igneous and metamorphic rocks but you rarely ever see in it in sedimentary rocks, tobacco, meteor crater in Arizona,  

fishing in the ohio river

oh no we found the canon and it is far deeper than i could imagine! but that is why there are so many blind fish and mice and crickets are there it makes so much sence. 

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feel bad again

I don't think i feel well 

i          

i               

don't 

there is no point in me

i am pealing all my muddy flesh

oh he is sad, 

"she would hate me anyway'

where is my like going

just over the hill and into the wood

oh i just see it

lt what is in there, out. 

no thought behind the work

repetitive actions

make fear go away

fear repetitive actions 

the thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

no thought behind the work

We love the classics

we hate god and jesus

what is on your face

is what is in my rotten stomack but knobody knows

fly home baby

fly home baby

i am having fun fucking her heart attack 

i see just me 

let me in there

let what is in there out

I bring check for you

Don't have Chinese Wateriest 

thankf you very much

she race away

why is she here 

i want to sell hamburgers in Yunnan

Room in another style

but i was not up for the timing

sheets up to my neck

my hands are covered in dirt

i woke up thankful i was awake

key to the room in another style

gnostic hand coverings.

why me? out to space and back

my hands are covered in dirt ,it is

embedded in the cracks in my skin

i visited these "Asian" joints 

screaming music hipsters all around

why are all these fat whit people eating clueless Asian girls? 

ROTISSARY

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i wish i was

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forward through the door david

hotness just hit my belly

i need water and more beer

It rains when is pours

It rains when is pours

I LIKE TH ERED HEAD BUT              LOOK AT HIM

6 am 7 and a dozen

Tsunami sweet suechi!  Small percectly formed face ands hands.Mia Mia Mia the sweet bench near the lip stick stage cloud curtain.Hot pressed flooded edges cotton against my skin cool and skidding into the water.Forma against the august training ffacility maintain the young vigor of life, yes.Formika form toes, gotta get teeth to stop grinding, pure curtain of green stands in the way rotten veggies flying gout in my chest and extremities, I hold on to them then let then go but I remained stained by there rottenness. Pure green curtain is that all there is, behind the eyes is just suffering existence comes out of the green suffering black specks covering it all flying at me can even see it sometimes. Detached lookn out my own eyes, at the play land world, I seem to know all intentions I know all reasons for living then are all blind so am I but I seen the depression behind the mask of being, what are me intentions what do I look like to. All a swirl of oil. 

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And Oaks Jived
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Sand Oak Jived

And Soak Jived
Ado Sank Jived

cant think rght foggy 

hands are detached 

i shouljudt keep my mouth shut my talking 

mind just has badness to say

His and theirs gives of, If and lying reborn.

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Observations #23

orange lilies open in the morning

Observations #22

time travel seems to start rashes below my nipple and behind my knee

now i don't know anything, or what i know or the thoughts are the same but they have different symbols now same feeling different symbols

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runnie outside while size of ead swells 

toumer on the outside thout i was what was i doing 

who is that guy walking on the bricked side walk

outside seems to much. but i can trash it all out

chaos not quite there where

force field of dripping iron oxide around 

the boxed thouts with diffuse edges 

i think i must have absorbed to much cobalt through my skin

i cant see colors correctly everything looks to blue. 

just another wasteful 

cant' seem to be correctly when i am at first near

then i get better

it was just dirt

then excited energy, gota gota gota

how can things matter 

but they do they do because not mattering is matter

just another image floating out

Total Dissent

I can Throw. the negative thoughts out
I can Throw. Teh negatibe thoughs out
I look Outside. first it is then it is outside. can everything be?

Frist she, no, first, then she, no --, then she. she walks by and takes on my thoughts feelings perceptions, they project into her head.

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Some kind of hardwood floor in the sunlight not the usual trapped in a pale skinned painted creature, clammy palms, so easy to fall into easy thoughts, old old its easy and familiar but it could be different totally different it is not that big a deal anyway. It’s good and simple like I want to be. Still covered by skin.

green curtain as seen in meditation #5

Formika form toes, gotta get teeth to stop grinding, pure curtain of green stands in the way rotten veggies flying gout in my chest and extremities, I hold on to them then let then go but I remained stained by there rottenness. Pure green curtain is that all there is, behind the eyes is just suffering existence comes out of the green suffering black specks covering it all flying at me can even see it sometimes. Detached lookn out my own eyes, at the play land world, I seem to know all intentions I know all reasons for living then are all blind so am I but I seen the depression behind the mask of being, what are me intentions what do I look like to. All a swirl of oil.

weight lifting, shes at school for 25 years

It rains when is pours
I LIKE TH ERED HEAD BUT LOOK AT HIM
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DRILLING

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NO I WILL NOT TELL HIME

NO I HAVE TO

I AM BETTER THAN YOU.

UP ON THE BOR ing hill personality station.

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paralyzed
body asleep but i am awake
breath loud, maybe someone will hear
try to roll on my side
someone calls my name
back to world again

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The Phantom continued to breed. Words could not contain the excitement I felt when they entered my body. Geometric designs – Dancing – slow blue presence of drumming in the air, filling it. By the time I woke up I was changed, and in a deeply filmed place. It is not wrong it is just seems weird. It is not the end it just seems weird. Another unexpected discovery was the large quantity damned souls, though they seemed to not suffer. The over all height of the dwelling was increased by spires and architectural details. Other taller buildings are under construction by the hive included quarks clumped together to form proton or neutron base structures. Commonplace everyday speech was replaced by literal descriptions of the crimes committed against God and The State. An antisymmetric combination of charmed free girls seems lacking to me, somehow hollow, I do not like to feel this or is it “thinks” this. Tongue in the ass as the sun burns out all color everything is bright and scary. Lounge around the yard scared of the birds chirping, impossible to separate the state from the freedom I do not feel, but want to. Cannot want. Should not want, wanting only re-enrolls the feeling of need, the pain of lack.

Nutritional reemployment of my lower brain functions was imperative to my timing if I was to return to my own species, it was either that or run the risk of becoming just another measurable quantity. Correct correct the boy did it, really the books turned out to be just spiritual masturbation. Much more interesting was the color of drying iron oxide and pulp sci-fi novels. God checked the re-enrollment plan everything was in order, up to date, allright, good enough for me to deal with good job. My mouth became dry and clamy need to drin k more water, can’t forget, things are getting too good, I am getting lazy. Well on my way down again it looks like thats okay. Then up again. Today, Scientists had their first-ever peek (surrounded by foggy train sounds in the distance) of these souls while trying to capture the detailed behavior of red cell ideology. Reduction and Enhancement claimed that similar effects can be achieved by continuation of life chemicals. Excited by chemicals, then coming down on a parachute. Live television broadcasts viewed archaeological discovery within their bodies. The only reliable means of identifying precise targets is to bait the enemy. Performance characteristics in a sandstorm, I can’t find my feet ,my words seemed to start existing outside of the fear and terror, in a bubble outside rear sense input. Just less important, now coming from the stomach not behind the eyes. Theory to stress is a theory to stress. Stress performance anxiety in all my subjects keeps me happy and light weight.

heavy metals on paper

pear blossoms

I Am Not

I am not reflecting light
I am not already present in the light.
I am not language
I am not response to tangible and realistic dangers.
I am not something questionable or unknown.
I am not negative self-talk
I am not being threatened by a rival.
I am not the nature of knowledge
I am not any system of molecules in a mixture of gasses
I am not something that will prove to be useful or successful in some sense
I am not determined in principle solely by how I relate to objective reality, or by whether I accurately describes that reality.
I am not a point moving in space-time
I am not the world, universe, all physical objects, or abstract objects.
I am not being-in-itself or being-for-itself
I am not a philosophical zombie
I am not an exhaustive combination of multiple colors of pigment
I am not a reductive or non-reductive physicalist position
I am not described by an underlying theory.
I am not consciousness or unconsciousness
I am not an animal
I am not something that is entitative
I am not all that exists
I am not able to breath or think or eat
I am not a feral child
I am not afraid of losing
I am not android who lacks human emotions
I am not worthless
I am not famous (or infamous)
I am not omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence, omnibenevolence (perfect goodness), divine simplicity, jealous, or eternal and necessary existence.
I am not pure awareness
I am not a tracks already available on the long playing album
I am not a a hypothetical massive scalar elementary particle predicted to exist by the Standard Model of particle physics.
I am not entirely in isolation from any effect that might touch my behavior and behavioral disposition.
I am not my behavior
I am not defined as qualities or sensations
I am not unhappy with my life
I am not the lack or absence of something, rather than of anything
I am not able to impress anyone
I am not an infinite variety of universes
I am not anarchist symbolism,
I am not basic emotions or other mental states
I am not happy with my life
I am not a biological organism
I am not different things
I am not the true Dharma eye, the marvelous mind of Nirvana, the true form of the formless, or the subtle dharma gate that does not rest on words or letters.
I am not of indeterminate value and definition
I am not composed of an independently existing fliud substance
I am not a blue sky
I am not my fear
I am not persisting through time
I am not mechanistic
I am not vegetarian
I am not the seat of intelligence
I am not a being with the neurological prerequisites to understand moral consequences and take his life morally seriously
I am not potentially threatening
I am not a mirror-reflected copy
I am not subject to dispute and re-interpretation based on alternate definitions
I am not composed of atoms and electrons
I am not an immoralist
I am not to be taken seriously as a component of my experience
I am not an eleven-dimensional not consistent supergravity reduction line
I am not outside of any psychological states
I am not sugar, foam, pure sand or snow, cotton, clouds, or milk
I am not recasting knowledge
I am not difficult or impossible to convey
I am not

Pollock began painting with his canvases seeing viscous flows of paint. If I am in the space through which IT moves, the painting comes out of mathematical chaos. Forging beyond the changing art-world trends Pollock commented: "look”.

square head in striped gray shirt my stomach hurts i think i had to much coffee my head is kinda fat right now and i need to wash my hands they feel sticky and dry from sitting in this room to long slightly feeling that things are not alright what does that mean? switched between states of mind what switches what changes is there a switch or did i make that up?

hungry for something other
than coffee
I want the green lite
and can't stomach
any more of that
vinegar shit i need
some banana/strawberry juice

Personality station in
black sunglasses and a new hip bag
golf ball surrounded by
nails in my left temple
left on Akien
do not enter and
construction
on my way to but greens
now where am i

cosmoc prof

cosmoc prof like fire hydrants next to sidewalks
cosmoc prof eats cheese on Fridays with mustard
cosmoc prof drives like a fuck'n crazy mother fucker
cosmoc prof wipes boogers on his jeans
cosmoc prof wont stop talking about god damn nonsense
cosmoc prof he cant see the stars tonight because of the clouds
cosmoc prof wants to find love
cosmoc prof fucks like a werewolf
cosmoc prof stashes bits of toe nail in his mothers couch
cosmoc prof his head is huge and buzzing
cosmoc prof writes collaborative bullshit on internet
cosmoc prof appears instantly when nervous
cosmoc prof constantly has eyelashes in his cheek
cosmoc prof feels thirty feet tall outdoors
cosmoc prof worries he is going to go crazy and hurt the ones he loves
cosmoc prof hates to clean
cosmoc prof forgets all about the shit of the world
cosmoc prof likes to get headaches
cosmoc prof has cancer on his butt from a tic
cosmoc prof loves to rub his face in kittens bellies
cosmoc prof smells of sulfur and mercury
cosmoc prof punches out heads of family owned businesses
cosmoc prof got lock jaw after cutting his arm with some rusty rebar
cosmoc prof has no hope for tomorrow

blood sugar

smushing thoughts roll
through the Broken
Baskets Rolloling
tongue of feeling is my body

Autan star scapes
warm tongue of
thought is bonding with
my spine. All red
and bumpy like

chickens into Pan passionate prayer

infrastructure thigh

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1980s investment scams

I raced to win a Corporate Marketing Department but, crashed instead in what had been a stronghold of certain stars over the meridian. With my growing fear of timekeeping devices I considered leaving show business to the world outside world, a thought that was immediately followed by long encounters by Portuguese traders. In a daze, I guessed my eastward position relative to an imperial court in the city of prerogative and resigned autonomous spectacular growth. Finding the lights to hard to concentrate I slowly enjoyed the confidence as the head of government. My military is governed by peacekeeping operations and an atypical inland climate, mostly analogous to a large industrial terrace farming community. Government efforts failed to reach my vision of over-investment during the late 1980s.

football to Schopenhauer

Originally founded for European ruling families, the playoffs have made ten trips to transmit audio between cities. The famous three-note title characters seem to often keep vintage radio all-electronic. The prescient prophet allegedly wrote long-distance lengthy memos to commercial free Antarctica. Ionospherically propagated complex automata ride on the main signal, which runs parallel to this specific type of fermented unnecessary suffering. The mind of God is prudent never to distinguish persons he sees as the same nature of typical personified unique personalities and roles. These beings are traditionally interpreted as the average person's rationalist view of angels. Rather, all such interactions are different angel-like animals. Other hierarchies hold that the traditional role and the frequently depicted human-like creatures are simply bright-coloured secular and mythological subjects. It is hard to tell the difference between abstract set of ideas, values, or experiences and psychological disciplines that divine the essence of extensive inter-communication with Sub-Saharan Africa.

Many governments face names like Danso with an advanced, highly-specialized bureaucracy maintaining varying alliances with non-canonical dimensional realities beyond mainstream history. The Mystics in question variously describe the two halves of the human species through the individual and cultural experiences of ultimate unification with the divine preexistent field. Physical reality should be remembered to have some consciousness of the universal simple obvious truths of experience. Much like poetry, an attempt to demolish support of fundamentally characterized genius is precluded from entering beyond the realm of inevitable tragedy. The identification of compassion as an important part of destructive tendencies innate to liberal views and therefore too old or too young to reproduce strong, healthy children.

night of april 25th

garbage face smell, smell of washing dishes gols anarchy slopping wet food gotta getit Clean wanna belong live in fillmgive me more for a me something dinner i ahve not eten all my change for a cigarret america Rive smells like tadpools my childhood of tadpools why does it always smell like pankakes when i go around a corner?

poems while driving #1

Road begin belt Cross tea firefly school blind manhole south blind in one spot concerned with being thinking of turning images of yellow stars to the end old Chinese man behind me in a car sitting no he was reading no except with door services residential fixed light installations jobs by store on best park will exotic mortuary litter highway crypt home cracking in the ears foggy food cake 347 push walk store hollow innings limit blue flames welcome hope.

pearce

large rusted metal locomotive poking its way through my viscous flesh, it gives the tenses, gives and tenses. bulbous black ideas covering me like a sheet, until that is all there is and ending is an option now useful for me. one single second one single millionth of a millimeter.

people people

people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people people

meaningless statements

Press releases on fecal-contaminated drinking water led by teacher and political activists failed to win an Indy Car race.

Rate of change of momentum is proportional to the resultant force producing it and takes place in the direction of that force.

One can consider The Laws to generate double the ejected spent gas of a macroscopic object in flight.

Philosophical criticism was discovered nearly two centuries after the two approaches were eliminated by the awkward infinite predictions of classic non-mathematical electromagnetic field tensors. The field can be viewed as a material which possess a slightly larger than the expected total amount of change. However, according to the stick or pipe paradigm, marine-grade epoxy is commonly used to describe or denote individual preference to the Danish Archipelago.

news stalled at work cut up #1

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news stalled at work cut up #2

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movie at 9:00

feeling shell of my skin
inside all ricocheting buzzing particles
check my fingers while I wait for the movie to release me
I am looking at the silhouette of my damaged finger
I think I have two nails growing over top of one another

hollow shell
can't understand what i am feeling
can't see things correctly any more
lips are numb and buzzing
i feel dizzy
i wanna sleep
i wanna sleep
i can't tell what i am feeling
it is all jumbled
all this hopelessness in the world
a flower blooms

Just to be in his presence is enough

my april 18th

Magnolia pink blooms in the hazy smog sky but there is blue above.
sulfur lakes with geese and water birds tall dead grass, spiny bushes
Iron oxide red sprayed off the white paper
hidden aesthetic mountainousness splashes
dream of quartz pebbles in rain
hardness in damp smells
black dirt

god is energy

Staged on Monday

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acid mine drainage

unite body and mind
birds do not fly
take take take
flowing steps
what do i believe
unite body and mind

Genesis

and David said FUCK RELIGION, and he saw that it was good.
and David said FUCK REALISM, and he saw that it was good.
and David said FUCK OBJECTS, and he saw that it was good.
and David said FUCK VALUES, and he saw that it was good.
and then he ate dinner

Observations #21 (Sogi Edition)

snow-capped as they are,
the gentle slopes of the mountains
fade into the hazy mist
at twilight on a spring day

touch

reflection in an ephemeral forest pond

Camera focus damaged in beer dunking incident, so close up leaves are out of focus but reflection of tree tops remains in focus.

Observations #20 (Paul Di Filippo Edition)

The wash cloth hanging on the shower curtain rod is slightly darker on its wetter edge

Observations #19 (Ryokan Edition)

showing their backs
then their fronts
falling maple leafs

elm trees
grass
decaying log
smell of forest decay
not decay
change
smell of the forest changing
I dig into the forest floor to smell the change

Observations #18 (Tioga Edition)

the gate is rustier at the welds

elm leaves

when i look in the mirror i see myself, but i think if i look i will see

Observations #17

the couch creaks when it is sat in

ACTIVIA!

Sam: fresh Me: always Sam: feeble Me: fellows falling behind the curtain Sam: straight Me: ridiculing Sam: fall flies Me: scared tunnels Sam: notice shoulder sleep Me: cracking vacant streets Sam: incident sharp points Me: going on in the back room Sam: forget what they told you Me: you should brush your teeth Sam: fungus matches brain spots Me: careening around the bend Sam: bends curve tops and travel Me: sandwich in heaven Sam: juicy lightwich Me: contact cement Sam: sticks bark in my fingernail Me: fingers come to my ears Sam: too many unread words Me: a kind soul once told me to fuck off Sam: I try not to look at my poop before I flush it Me: NEVER! Sam: right, WE MUST hold on to our beliefs Me: beliefs! Agh shit! Who told you we are worth it! Sam: if I have something to say, promise you won't listen. Till mean so much to me Me: can't see the balloons for the razor blades that’s what I always say, you can't trust a yellow bitch Sent at 11:21 PM on Saturday Sam: yellow bitch from the yellow planet is one thing; yellow bitch from another time is something else. I realized that when I walked by a dandelion today It didn't say SHIT to me Me: yes sir, that would do it, I agree, can't find o good one anywhere, believe me, yes, yes Sent at 11:23 PM on Saturday Sam: don't talk to me like you just know me, WE'RE BLOOD my friend, and that has got to blossom something worth looking at eventually Sent at 11:24 PM on Saturday Me: you finally see? Now don't just stand there roll on out! Sam: no Me: kindred lampreys in the blue wine are waiting to see your flowing thoughts It is just that way Sam: but sheltered thoughts shrivel up so fast before I can release them into our most well known atmosphere Me: it is hard some times, to much damn nitrogen Sam: Ox3must be hard for you Does it jab sometimes? No? Sent at 11:28 PM on Saturday Me: yaw your funny, you are just too inexperienced to understand, Ha! He does not even see! Just wait till you reach my age my boy! Then it all starts to make sense, the yellow boy truly begin his journey in to the dark German forest Sent at 11:31 PM on Saturday Sam: I don t s e e the r e s emb la a nc e to a n y of y ou r t h oouuts from previous.... say SAY me: without demarcating truths what do we have? in the end just a jumble of dualisms. Sent at 11:34 PM on Saturday Sam: it is true sometimes....I just think about what my world is like underneath the positive colors and then I realize that everything can be perceived in different light me: yes! visualize the death of the atom, the death of the quark, these things all die, and no they all change. is change death ? is death a change Sam: sure, but, what is beneath all of it? I mean to the smallest things of our knowledge everything becomes all about jolts and chemicals but in between them... what is there... that is God jolts and chemicals jolts and chemicals me: maybe the model is wrong, what if there is nothing separated to be in between of... joltsandchemicals joltsandchemicals joltsandchemicals Sam: anything is possible me: the menu is not the food Sam: for me it’s the open ended answer that keeps my blood flowing I hope the answer is never filled if someday they say it is, I will ignore it me: answer the question .... answerthequestion answerthequestion in between does not make sense anymore Sam: why me: show it to me Sam: does everything have to be connected by SOLID Sent at 11:43 PM on Saturday me: if there is only connection then connection is false, we are already there Sam: all I'm saying is anything is possible, I would believe that the "hell" that is written of in biblical texts is the house that is my body if someone presented the argument well enough. what makes the thoughts in my mind different from yours I believe what you're saying and I believe everything else at the same time. it doesn't suck at all I love it me: believe it all then... we are already there right now NOW NOW Sam: no don’t say that "right now" was a mantra that made me feel too anxious I could not control my head me: belief is connection is nothing in between in between is an only thing that has departed feeling and has entered the place of electric pulses Sam: I know...its only words, I give them too much credit. me: feeling is the true blue word virus, I man once said

africaa aulacogen arch

here

Stunted Empty

Observations #16

the farther away an object is from a naked incandescent bulb the more diffuse its shadow

Observations #15

the floral cushion on the kitchen chair is hanging slightly off one corner

Observations #14

the soft outer petals of the daffodil are lit by the living room lamp

Observations #13

slightly broken glasses tilt on my face

Observations #12

i can touch things with my hands

Observations #11

turning down the volume is similar to but not the same as turning off

go there

I seem to big, size wise, for the world
The hotness of the room is dry and cozy to me in my sweater
The balconies form into jaws that gape at me
Must not go there
I seem to have some kind of new technology sandpaper under my skin
It is wrong but what is it
Things used to be better then
Must not go there
If only things were different
I remember when things were better
Must not go there

wardle

Ram : Do you come with me to film?
Shyam: No. To day wardle is playing tennis
Ram: do you come with me to circus
Shyam: No. To day wardle is playing tennis
Ram: Do you come with me to Cricket match?
Shyam: No. To day wardle is playing tennis
Ram: Who is this wardle? Is he a national player? I never heard his name
Shyam: I don’t know. He is my lover’s husband. When ever he plays tennis I will go to his home.

scrape. ground dirt into my hair. hairs sticking out of dirty arms. rough textured knobs. skinning slide across the lichen sandstone. crown dirt mingling in mind towards winning fungal advance. running crumbling in towards the edge of the hemlock wet with dew smell of dried stone and wet earth tumbling down the scraped sides. moss covered arms. eyes looking out of cobbles cracked around the edges by rain and wind.